 Looking back now and knowing what I know, I see how patriarchal society really is. Now, I don't write this post with any negativity towards men. This is more a reflection on how patriarchal society has shaped me as a woman and the impacts I see it has had.
First and foremost, most of my life I didn't even realize consciously there was anything out of balance. I went on with my life moving forward as anyone else. Going to school, traveling, etc. I didn't look deeply at all into divine feminine or masculine attributes. A few years back I went to one of my first Goddess circles. I was surrounded by women much older and wiser than myself. In that circle, I had this realization that I was not connected to myself as a woman. When I began to research this further, I realized I was actually shaped by my society in many ways. Looking around the first thing that came to mind was how connecting with other females was off putting. I actually trusted men more than I did women. In my past women were always gossipy and no matter how close you got to them you knew that you were a topic leaving their lips as soon as you turned your back or did something wrong in their eyes. It was constant comparison and jealousy. This circle taught me something that day. I saw for the first time wise women that were caring toward one another, sympathetic, embracing, soft and full of tenderness. It was a side of women I haven't really been exposed to. In this moment I then realized that the emotional support I had always needed and received was actually with my girlfriends in the past. The nature of masculine is extremely rational. Although at times I needed that rational advice, I went so many years living by rationality devoid of emotions and making life choice from only this space. Vulnerability is strength and divine feminine connects with that aspect of strength. Divine feminine is patient and shows no fear in her weakness if it arises. Connecting with divine feminine energy helped me through the deeper layers of healing. The mind can move forward quickly and this is where the masculine energy is needed. But the body needs a feminine touch to full release stagnation. This is the balance between yin and yang. In society there is an underlining structure of competition, winning, rationality, getting ahead, effort, etc. Now of course all that is needed, but it is tipped way too far into the masculine energy. This energy has been at the helm for years and it's time that it changes and finds balance. I will go further into this shortly but I figure I'd write a little intro into divine feminine vs masculine! Feel free to write your thoughts below and add to this conversation <3 Much Love Leela Light
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 Walking away from something that we love can be one of the hardest moves to take in our lives. So often we sacrifice our truth because of our desires. Making bold choices for our lives can feel impossible when there's an attachment anchoring us down.
The truth is that if your soul already made a choice it means that the energy is in motion for the shift. That deeper part of you may have already said I want change, but the mind and body have such connection you end up being at war with yourself. I have seen some of my clients including myself hanging on for a year and ignoring my truth. The issue is that truth gets louder and louder and if you do not follow through the universe will do it for you. You also may subconsciously start acting out without realizing, almost sabotaging the relationship to leave. The first step toward listening to your truth is simply becoming honest about what that truth is. The witness is always watching and always knows, but often we are masterful at distracting ourselves from what is. Living your truth is one of the most important steps to take on this journey we are on. Turmoil is destined if you do not. Of course all of this does not mean that you make decisions whenever you hear a whisper internally. We need to get acquainted with the ability to pause. We need patience and mostly to learn to listen. So often our minds are chattering. The only way to get to this place of truth is to STOP! Creating a 5 minute a day routine of meditation is the best way to begin for beginners. If you are familiar with sitting still then I recommend 10-15 minutes a day of practice. Set your timer on the phone for just 5 minutes and simply sit still. You can sit in any comfortable position as long as the spine is straight. The best way to start meditation is to focus on your breath. Watch yourself inhale and watch yourself exhale. If at anytime the mind wanders as it does, allow it to wander and bring your thoughts back to your breath. Do your best to not dwell on the minds constant movement. You are taming a wild part of yourself. Be the witness of your breath and connect with this first. This is the practical way for you to become familiar with your truth. You need to first have the willingness to see it, to discover your personal truth. Then from here you need to cultivate the bravery to move through the truth gracefully. Walking away is sometimes the only thing we can do to create space for growth. Remember the first month of leaving someone is typically the worse. Time heals. You also do not need to be nasty with departure. Truth without compassion is brutality. Be kind to others when you need space but also to yourself. If you are truth you will not hurt another and build karma. I mean, they may suffer in pain for a bit but if you are living by truth then all will fall into place perfectly. Remember, pain is good for the soul, it is good for growth. Staying because you think another will suffer is doing the other person injustice. Sometimes they aren't brave enough to admit a disconnect needs to happen and sometimes the universe chooses you to work through that truth and be the driving force of the shift. Live your truth so that you can shine bright! Much Love, Leela Light |
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